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These are my peeps yo! And some of the stuff I like the best from them!


The first three are for me :D :iconyourocksonicplz:

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The Wrong Thing by DecepticonFlamewar The Right Reasons - For Indiana by DecepticonFlamewar

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Horrific Fan Disservice by DecepticonFlamewar

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Are You Ready to Call It Yet? - MAMA Scared Stiff by DecepticonFlamewar
Echidna Week 2: The Art Academy Guy Bought It by DecepticonFlamewar

allhailinsanity! The first and the last ones are kinda for me :D

Happy reeeeeeaaaaaaaly late christmas by allhailinsanity seeking inspiration by allhailinsanity ahh winter by allhailinsanity Untitled Drawing by allhailinsanity time with pride, pride with timeStop there in your tracks
you think and predict and when you think life’s done screwing you over AND THEN it does something unexpected, you lose a friend
a loved one
Then what do you do?  Nothing; you’re dead
death is slow but it happens every day, we fear it we run from it but somehow it corners us makes us feel there’s nowhere to run
nowhere to hide
absolutely NO way to fight
your pride is cowering with its tail between its knees, you’ve spent a lot of your life and you owe it to friends
but sometimes
JUST sometimes you’ll look at death and see pride, you’ll see pride coursing through those dark holes in death’s miserable skull, you’ll see people RUNNING AND LAUGHING with NO visible reason to and no plans to find one
Then some day you understand it, and on that day that GLORIOUS MARVELOUS DAY, when death has you sitting on a chair, arms chained
Those metal shackles of sadism will SHATTER, that’s right s
just a little something by allhailinsanity


GLaDOS - VoicesIt has been just a few days since your programming began. You are nothing more than a round core of circuits; you are delicate, feeble, barely wrapped by a steel skeleton.
On the desks, the projects already say otherwise. The lines on the paper build complex maps, tracing a huge future for you - they show hundreds of wires and embroidered metal boards, a high-tech hard disk, and what, so they say, will be the most precise system of lenses in the world.
You wait, patiently. Your senses are still dim; the small optic is weak, whereas touch, smell and taste won't exist in your world.
Most of all, you hear. You hear their speeches, you hear their laughs; you hear a male voice repeating orders, as your supervisors type them in. Simple instructions – simple footage of experiments, with audio comment.
watch - and - learn
Always, every working day, you hear them say that you will become something great. You believe it – it is a fact, a truth like any other.
A night you can
Portal 2 - Fortuna et virtute
Ove posa il corpo di quel grande
che temprando lo scettro a' regnatori
gli allÚr ne sfronda, ed alle genti svela
di che lagrime grondi e di che sangue.

Ugo Foscolo – I sepolcri
VII. De principatibus novis qui alienis armis et fortuna acquiruntur.
He has been too lucky for his own good.
What a magnificent reign he has. A masterpiece of glass and steel – her masterpiece, actually, crumbling to pieces in his hands.
She is the lady of a dying place. All she can do is watch, helpless for the very first time, while he swings on her stolen body as if it were the throne of the world.
No one knows better than her what it means – building yourself a kingdom, especially in an hostile environment. Naturally, there is more to that; imbecile tyrants never lasted for long.
The human does not seem to care much. All she does now is stare at the screens, fingers tight around her Portal Gun – she clearly isn't insulting herself for putting that mo
Portal 2 - Reflection
Sometimes it was the echo of her rage.
It came without warnings, splitting in half those long days of testing – the days in which her Aperture, the Aperture she had been planning since her first moments, had finally trapped the whole lot of humans in its maze.
Her deadly calm would break, all of a sudden; and the hatred would burst in her cables, bringing back to life yells and tears of events long gone by then.
The worn faces staring at her from the test chambers became full, healthy and arrogant again; she saw them through the eyes of a offended woman, of a victim. Their bodies looked renewed and clean, back in space and time – she was among them and protested, screamed, argued back from the bottom of her heart. She struggled to save her dignity, to save herself; but it was too late.
Always too late, forever too late. Too late to take back her silent consent, too late to prevent her desperation from exploding; too late to spare hundreds of people the fate they had suffered,
Portal 2 - What Matters MostIt is just a matter of roles.
In the monstrous chaos they have left behind, this is pretty much the only certainty you have. It is the first thing Aperture taught you, and the first thing what is left of Aperture needs from you right now.
It is simple as that, really. One does not need your intelligence to work it out. The moron was not made to rule thousands of acres of laboratories, exactly like the mute lunatic should never have been a test subject. Roles are the primal condition of a well-working structure – thanks to their reversal, or rather the lack of any, this place is now shattered to pieces. Great.
It does not feel that bad, though. Back in your body, you can reach every corner of Aperture, every broken or functional tool, with electricity flowing for thousands of miles in its veins.
This is your place, and no one else’s. It was made for you, you were made for it. How could they ignore such an obvious fact?
Your circuits are back to business at full rhythm, ready
Portal 2 - More ScienceShe tries harder every day.
Her internal clock gives a start to her mornings with a drizzle of orders, soft and systematic; they join the buzz of the neon lights, flooding the circuitry of each tier.
She lets them out, one by one, until the slow awakening turns into activity — the machines obey in a slow crescendo, a tune unchanged for years, to fulfill a ritual as unnecessary as it is needed.
She gives a timing to her world outside. It is a way, a resource, to silence the error she cannot correct in herself. It makes things a little less heavy, if not better at all.
For yes, her voice still takes her by surprise, when her plans flow too well to distract her — her echo, her sad song, springs from the back of her memory. With her and her grief, Aperture comes to a halt.
She needs a pensive pause; then, again, it starts over.


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Hello, I'm Indy. Pretty much all I do is write fanfiction and draw some fanart on the side. I write for Portal and I try to put a strong psychological component into my stories. So if you've ever wanted to learn psychology through fanfiction, this is the right place.

Thanks for dropping by!

Various places I can be found at:
Archive of Our Own:……
Skype: indianaprower

My best friends on here (that you should watch because they're amazing people)

:icondecepticonflamewar: (She is the best and also she has an awesome, unique art style and writes like a baus *edited to reflect her preference in spelling XD)
:iconallhailinsanity: (Really fun to talk to with some of the weirdest deviations... also super hilarious and British)
:iconaltairattorney: (The greatest fanfic writer ever. Period.)

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DeviantArt Distinctions

I have been the lucky beneficiary of several awards for fanfiction on deviantArt, those of which have been:

Daily Deviation, September 21, 2013 - Portal: Still Alive

Daily Deviation, August 29, 2014 - Transformers: We Came in War

Fiendish Fan Fiction contest winner, November 26, 2013 - Portal: Follow the Yellow Line

Second-Person POV contest winner, June 29, 2014 - Portal: Forever

Random Acts of Kindness contest winner, August 23, 2014 - Transformers: We Came in War

TalesofAperture Portal Christmas contest winner with 153/160 possible points, December 25, 2014 - Portal: First Christmas - A Portal Parody

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monochromaticCheetah Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2015  New Deviant Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave :)
iammemyself Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You are very welcome.
SonicRedesigned Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey there, we haven't really spoken in a while, if much at all.

You know, something's been on my mind lately, I remember when I first started this account here on Deviant Art. My art wasn't overall impressive, since I was just starting to find my signature way to sketch, draw, and even model.

I think what really struck me was when you commented on my account, it was the first comment I had received, and it wasn't rude (Which I've seen others had bad starts.)

I may have seen your comments somewhere else on previous deviations, but I can't quite remember.

Just wanted to say, you're an awesome person, and we should talk more often. :)
iammemyself Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey man

I always thought your stuff was impressive.  You've always had solid backgrounds or concept art, and to specialise in it like you do is pretty rare over here. 

Maybe.  The thing is, I don't like commenting on things I myself know nothing about, so while I am still around after all this time, I do not comment because my knowledge of backgrounds is rudimentary and I've never even tried modelling.  I don't feel it's my place to tell someone how to improve in something I know nothing about.  Now this might seem like a crappy excuse, and maybe it is, but across the board I generally don't say things about works that are better than what I can do; I rarely even review my favourite writer because she's so good I don't know what to tell her.

Thank you!  I'm always around.
SonicRedesigned Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow, thank you!

Hey I get it, I'm sure after several years on Deviant Art, commenting would get old, (I know it has for me haha.)
I really respect your the way you stand about " I don't feel it's my place to tell someone how to improve in something I know nothing about."
There's many people who just criticize other's artworks, yet have none of that branch of artworks.

"-you do is pretty rare over here. "
I've noticed this, there's not many people who work on backgrounds anymore, (which is fine by me!)

So I see that you had a few journal story's, is that your signature on Deviant Art? Or do you also specialize in other works as well?
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You're welcome!
iammemyself Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, I do try to comment, but since I'm pretty much a sub-par artist I don't always.  I don't really look at too much art on here anyways; I don't go looking for it and the groups I get messages from most often don't post the stuff I want to see.  Not the fault of the groups, it's just that most artists don't draw what I want to see.

Awesome.  I mean I don't like it when people give me writing advice when they're not as skilled as I am, so I figure that'd annoy others as well.  If they have advice about something I messed up in proofreading, sure, but I've had people criticise my interpretations before. 

Yeah, most pictures don't even have backgrounds.  I know why, since they're a pain if you haven't been taught how to do them.

I don't know what you mean by journal stories, but most of my stuff here is fanfiction.  I suppose you could say it was my specialty.  I do draw fanart sometimes but I'm not very good at it nor very consistent, so I don't draw as often as I write.  Sometimes I draw something well but I don't do it often enough that I draw as much as I should.  I guess you could say my drawing didn't improve on par with my writing (though it definitely has to some extent).
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allhailinsanity Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
edited the journal, now you be tagged son
allhailinsanity Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
uh, thx for faving my journal but, why? isnt that the sort of thing people do with actual pictures?
iammemyself Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I like the way you write.

Obviously I also have a favourite journals folder.
allhailinsanity Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
oh, well thanks, i dont like writing all emotionally and such so it doesnt happen often.
well thats an interesting concept
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